‘Rape’ is a four-letter word but it is a heinous crime that has become an unfortunate reality in our society. Every year, countless individuals - predominantly women - become victims of this horrific act. For those who have never experienced it, I will them that it is really difficult to comprehend the severity of the trauma and the long-term effects it can have on someone's life. Yes, I am belonging to that tradition where women are treated like a god, Yes I belong to that tradition where god waged war against enemies and flooded them for the self-respect of women. But sad to say that I am alienated from such traditions today only the tears of victims are flooded and nothing more. Today being a 22-year-old lady I need my brother to help to drop in my college, today also my father is not invited to my family weddings, today also my mother is not happy to see me in good western dress, and today also my friends are not ready to stay with me after college hours and now I am losing faith in humanity.
Today, we're going to wake up humanity and I am going to talk about the aftermath of rape, from the perspective of a victim. I will show you the pain, the anger, the self-blame, and the long road to healing which changed the life of my family. Yes, Now I will be formal, there is nothing to be emotional, if my rapist is not emotional why should I? I know rape is a simple process for men, it’s just a matter of seconds for them but for me, it is like boiling in Satan’s boiler.
First and foremost, let's discuss the immediate aftermath of a rape. For me, the first emotion is a shock. It can be difficult to process what has happened, and often I find myself in a state of disbelief. This can quickly give way to fear, as I begin to realize the extent of the physical and emotional harm that has been inflicted upon me.
I had struggled with a range of intense emotions in the hours, days, and weeks following a rape. The pain and fear are overwhelming for me. For me, the trauma can be so intense that I feel completely numb as if I'm in a dream. The emotions that follow can be overwhelming, and I frequently experience anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts.
Self-blame is another common emotion I go through after a rape. I frequently make the mistake of believing that what happened was somehow my fault. I might tell myself I shouldn't have attended that party or worn that clothing. I might consider whether I encouraged my assailant in any way or whether there was any way I could have stopped it. This way of thinking, in my opinion, is harmful and can make people feel guiltier, ashamed, and useless.
The physical effects of rape for me were also devastating. I have experienced a range of injuries, from bruises and cuts to broken bones and internal damage. I was treated like a sex toy for three days. In many cases, victims may contract sexually transmitted infections or become pregnant as a result of the assault. For me, the aftermath of rape is a physical and emotional burden that can last for years, if not a lifetime.
Even after the physical wounds have healed, the psychological damage can linger on me a lot. I can experience flashbacks, nightmares, and a constant feeling of unease. I have trouble sleeping, eating, or maintaining relationships. My trust in others is shattered, and it can be incredibly difficult to rebuild.
Many rape victims find themselves feeling completely alone in their trauma. They may be reluctant to speak out about what happened to them, fearing that they will be judged or not believed. They may feel like no one understands what they're going through, and that they'll never be able to fully heal from the experience.
However, it's important to remember that healing is possible. While the road to recovery can be long and difficult, it's important to seek help and support. There are many resources available for victims of rape, from therapy and support groups to crisis hotlines and legal aid.
One thing that is important to keep in mind for all of us is that healing is not a linear process. It's normal for survivors to have good days and bad days. I can make progress and then experience setbacks. It was important for me to be patient and kind to myself throughout this journey. Recovery is not something that can be rushed, and it's important to allow oneself the time and space to heal.
In conclusion, the aftermath of rape is a complex and painful experience that can have long-term effects on a victim's life. The trauma can be physical, emotional, and psychological. It's important to remember that healing is possible, but it's a journey that takes time and effort. Victims must seek out support and resources. Remember always be determined, it may take a gradual time. But Don’t forget that, I was Raped!