I wish I would have avoided it.
I wish I had been gone
The lies I tell him to make him feel warm.
The cigarettes I smoke to make myself calm.
Of the anxiety and love that my heart demands.

All love lies in the eyes they say
I can feel it in his too,
But the mountains we moved to break the trust come through.
The love I had for him can vanish away, but the memories in me will always stay.

I'll gather the courage to leave him for sure
But till then did we have it all?
Lovers forget the biggest mistakes they say
Was it even love for me?
The question awaits.

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