Your brain is so troubled,
And your thoughts are mumbled,
Because you know you have nothing,
No one to understand a thing!
As it is all inside your brain
Silent tears which pour out in vain.
You hate yourself so much more
For illusioning that happiness to last forevermore!

You know you’re not fine,
Cause there’s none calling you mine.
And then reality rapidly sets in,
Reminding you of the agony you’re in
When you try your best to fit in.
And the fantasy of having true friends disappear
As soon as those recurring circumstances appear.

Heartbroken, sad and lonely as you are
Cause you know you’re loved ones are so far,
Or maybe you don’t have any,
Cause you deserve none of the many.
Then you called “Friends”
Totally change like Modern Trends,
And only remember you when they need
Cause that friendship is filled with greed.

Oh! Please! Talk to nobody
They don’t care for you buddy!
You deeply notice the noise around
Being silent taking glances around,
Those classmates who said would stand by you
In a blink of an eye, they vanish before you.

You imagine yourself in mystic bliss
In those dreams you forever miss
Where your thoughts were so different
Dancing with compassion and love so elegant!

You don’t want to wake up, you whine
But you hear your alarm clock chime
You wake up to reality
Shattering the most beautiful fantasy!

Your thoughts get so twisted and wound
As your joy is nowhere to be found.
When you die for the validation they once gave you
Which is now lost in the dark before you.
Your heart cracks out open and overpowers your brain
But NO! Your intelligent brain tells you to refrain
You are desperate and want to cry out loud
But you cannot cause you don’t want to be found.

By them who’ll tease and laugh at you
But you’re still glad atleast they remember you.
Not cause of your fame
But because of your name
When they played that old game
Where they had the only aim,
To make you the most ashamed!

You bring up a broad smile.
Oh! Did you confuse it for a while?
Oh! That was never real,
That grin was never original!
The environment transforms you to be
That someone you never thought you’d be
Becoming silent and quite,
About the thoughts that might,
Turn you to the introvert you feared to be,
With time, you gradually started learning; to be!

In the midst of a dark lonely night
Just like the moon shines so bright
You realise that it’ll be your turn
To deviate from that wretched circle of endless turns
But someday you may stand up to make a change
But it would definitely be, too far a range!

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