When we see beautiful things in nature around us as children
We understand they are that way because they were created so by a supreme power, by God or gods.
Then we read about plants and animals and their respiratory and digestive and reproductive systems and also evolution
And the many ways in which that happened millions of years ago and continues to happen today 
And about dinosaurs and moths and butterflies and crickets 
and because of encyclopedias and National Geographic and the internet 
we get to see a lot of nature, so much of it
so many otherwise unknowable and unfathomable creatures and beings and phenomena
We almost get used to nature naturing
But then we go on that one trip or maybe to a local park nearby
Or step into our own garden on a Wednesday morning
And look at a spider so beautiful or a flower so intricate or a bird so elegant 
That it makes us want to unalive ourselves and all the reason we’d learnt for it to be that way 
vanishes, disappears, in that moment we know nothing
About the whys or whens or hows of nature
In that moment there is only us and that spider or flower or bird
And the light in between and we know nothing else.
That is how I felt when I looked at you a few moments ago.

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