Nights were violent, yet not of darkness they spun
But from the serpent’s gaze, their course was run.
Fast were the wheels of life, rapid the journey sped.
Swift were the decisions, shaping paths ahead
Escape has faces to see, in pursuit of the real
Confused about whom I am aiming for
Pleasure disguised as love, I believed in its dove
And I mistook its authentic skin for a heart laid bare
But deep within, the bones know they can decay,
And in this knowing, I fear my essence might wither away—
For they seized my vulnerability, casting shadows on my day
And I’m now versed in the art of this grim game,
Mastering the craft that once brought me such shame
Each choice I make, with cautious intent,
Seeking fulfillment where trust was spent—
I glide with a slipperiness, deft and precise,
Guarding my freedom from past’s vice
Listening solely to refined desires,
Pursuing dreams that spark no heart’s fires—
Embracing pleasures with no emotional claim,
Fulfilling cravings, untouched by love’s flame
In the desolate stretch, an oasis did appear,
A rare and cherished find, so precious and clear—
Amidst the endless search where hope seemed frail,
This hidden spring revealed love's true tale
This newfound hope, not in a desert’s sigh,
But within my world, as if a new planet’s sky
I’m not new to assert, in hope’s embrace I find,
Amidst his many conquests where true love was blind
But now I’m a commander in conquest, not just to claim and part,
I can truly possess, with mastery of the heart
Captured his essence in measured stride,
In careful steps, I claimed his realm with pride
As fate shaped trials throughout the decades of my life,
Doubts are my new breath, since mastery came through pain.
Each inhale is fraught with fears, as I question what I gain
Our roots began to deepen, forged with unwavering resolve,
Drawing closer to a new start, we embraced our destined path
I’m his hoist now,
Boots crushing all outside advances,
Securing every root, shutting out the intruders
Celestial beams traced pathways through the void
Wandering time found its beat, as purpose took hold
In this divine scheme, marriage emerged as our celestial muse
Crafting a stage of love, where every bloom and whisper would choose
As hearts entwine beneath the heavens’ watchful gaze,
Our souls dance in union, in this eternal, boundless embrace.
Through the Raven’s mournful shade, where hope was thin and cold,
I treaded miles in darkness deep, my spirit growing old.
Yet from the void where shadows reigned, a radiant light took flight,
A testament to trials past and dawn’s renewing light
And this is a granted gift I'll hold fast to forever.
You, dear, are my only light, my love's true endeavor
In you, I've discovered a heart so true,
A beacon of light where love's essence grew.
With each breath I take, I treasure the bond we’ve spun,
On this journey together, as two become one
Shiva, forever in my heart, you are my only one

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