I saw you in the shadows of time,
I saw you in the light that after the darkness would shine
I yearned for your presence in the brimming rain
I yearned for your embrace in the ounces of pain.
I breathe through the crevices of your memories that rapture my skin,
I smile at the funny things you once said, with a pout on my chin.
I live a thousand dreams, ones that encapsulate us being together
Coffee in one hand, conversation in another, bounded by the promise of forever,
I read about books of love, the look of amor that would make the ends of the world stop,
Where the snow would thaw and echoes of the heart gallop.
I searched for it in your eyes, like I was looking for air to breathe
Alas, it was a fallacy, one that was too good to be true, to keep
You never looked at me the way I wished for you to
A tale that never began in its precipice, a love that never found its redemption true.
I waited for you for far too long; now I am tired.
Tired of searching for love that never exists
Tired of putting effort that feels like a sided affair that forever persists.
Tired of being the only one who fights, for once I want to be the one who is fought for,
For now, I evict you from my heart, I let you go from every crevice of my heart
That once yearned for your presence for its existence in echoes loud and galore.
I let you go
For now, I let you go
Not for you, but for me
To finally see the reality as it beckons to be..

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