Moments of light came through, and life stood in its harmonious glance,

The beauty of love and the stellar of chance frowned upon its dance,

I stood becalmed in the serendipitous moment that encountered the cyclicity of glee,

Of the enamoured passions that led my life to the enveloped beauty of thee.

We all have those moments in life when we stand dumbfounded, where we have nowhere to go, no place to be in and no sight or vision of how our mundane productivity looks to be. It is often a moment in time, a staring and glaring bleak vision of predestined and orchestrated events that unfold like a domino, steadfast as first and then like the doom that awaits long-awaited arrival, that drives you into nonchalance and numbness of joy at the same time. 

I wonder what a moment like that looks like. A peaceful nudge from the universe that honey, your journey is not over, I am still the master, and you are the one who has to catch up with me. It is a game of charades, and only a clever player can understand the signs of the eternal and immortal realm. Like a melody playing on the piano and humming its tune, in the cacophonous amour of radiant silence, waiting for you to sway with it and to dance with it like no other.

Life was playing fiddle with me too, it seems like that lately. I had a tiring time this week, where there were high-level wins, and life seemed like everything was going right. From work, to studies, to fitness and socialisation, I seemed to be at the brink of the game. But then life happened, and one of my long-awaited and achieved endeavours suddenly sprang up in its psyche. 

And as someone who puts her heart and soul into everything she does, life was feeling unfair, although deep down I knew, all I needed was to accept it as it was and let go. And I did exactly that- okay, after proactively following up and giving my all, not to hide, I also almost threw a towel after doing that. But then I walked away from my workstation and decided to focus elsewhere. 

I went on a solodate and then went on a trip with my family the next day. And I had no idea what was coming. I was quite in low spirits and life seemed unfair, but as we reached our holiday destination, I decided to embrace the uncertainty. To let go of what I want life to pan out to be and give it every chance to surprise me, to inspire me, to let me feel the breath of being alive.

So I was on my way to my room, and my mother suddenly gasped at a lady who seemed vibrant in her stride. She asked me, " Do you recognise her and I took a second to process who she was. It was my beloved principal, the one whom I adored and who was my role model.

 The one who had seen me struggle in school, when I was struggling to stride through the days, to barely see the end of the tunnel, yearning to embrace the light, the hope of love, maybe one day reaching the seed of my growth that lay deep inside the trenches of incessant gloom. She beamed at me and then hugged me, asking me how I was and how I was doing. I looked at her with pride in my eyes, as I told her I am a content writer, award-winning poet, marketing mentor and social media manager who is about to start her master's in one of the most renowned institutions for marketing next year. 

As someone who notices the trees changing their most minute expression while swaying, I saw her looking at me with reverence and pride, with appreciation and exaltation of who I have become.

It was a moment I will treasure forever. A second that I would forever want to engrave in the psyche of my momentous stride. She talked with my mother and told her how proud she was and how difficult it has been for me and how far I have come.

 When I heard this, that is when it dawned on me, how little credit we give ourselves, how little we acknowledge ourselves and how much the seed of self-doubt and impostor syndrome creeps onto us. I saw the little girl in me crying tears of joy as this was the moment she had always dreamed of, of meeting her role model, but this time I met her after I met myself.

 And that is what made this even more memorable, even more inspiring. I was in complete honesty facing those times of self-doubt, am I even enough, am I behind? But it all took me a moment to acknowledge how far I have come.

And as I look back, I don't need any external validation to prove how worthy I am; no amount of money, appreciation, or achievement can ever change the way you see yourself and feel about yourself internally. Only you can.

So this one is for all those who doubt their journey and falter in moments of doubt that don't seem to end,

May you see the light that brims within you, the one that empowers you with the beautiful life that waits for you at the end.

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