I remember the day when I had my first word with him – 28th September. I was in my final year laboring myself in research work. The great taqd7-sk was always finding participants. Participants become a casual word, in my words, it might be easy to find God but not the voluntary participant. But the fact was I found him. A young, handsome gentleman named Aditya, 21 years old studying Bachelor of Arts. While chatting with him for a whole day, I saw all my objectives for study getting filled up. Do you all believe in the exchange of energy? If not, then it's just the same energy that you feel when you are close to your loved ones and I was having it for the unknown one. I was so happy and excited to start my research with such positive energy led by him. It was not only about exchanging chats, but was more about sharing positivity. Day by day, I kept engorging in those deep thoughts about him, his lifestyle but never heard him. I wasn’t aware of his terrified or harsh or soothing voice. It was just my memory that was shaping everything with chats.

As the time wrapped up, the chatting which started formally went through sharing experiences, memories, and family history. It went through the trail of hobbies like writing, managing things, painting, and many more. Suddenly one day I asked him for being my friend. To my surprise, he giggled up and said “I thought we are friends”. This led to a rush in my dopamine – a happy hormone. It was so impressive for me that I put my headphones on and started listening to Tera Yaar Hoon Mein. I became so informal that no sooner did I start asking more questions about him. In 1 month, we became not only good but better buddies in each other’s lives. I also noticed that my WhatsApp has his name at the top of the rating of the most chatted person.

One day just sitting by and thinking about life and trying to understand it deeply, my cell phone had a WhatsApp message of his with the picture icon. I quickly without wasting much of my time, downloaded that picture. That was how I saw her for the first time. A beauty wrapped in smooth, silky, black-colored hairy four-legged bitch. Her watery eyes were enclosed in sunglasses that perfectly suits her classy look. Not only the look but the name also has the power of scratching out every bit of love from me. She has a remarkable name – DORA. As soon as I heard her name, Dora – the Explorer came to my mind, she was another bitch who used to make me feel dumb or else she was playing blind. Jokes apart, I gave my heart which beats 72 times per minute to the one that beats 100 – 140 times a minute, at first look. Aditya, my best buddy, used to share pictures of Dora regularly with me. There was one reel shared by him that bought tears to my eyes and I was engorged in the desire for having her close to me.

Besides having unconditional love for Dora, Aditya and my friendship grew up strong daily. In all these days of chatting, I promised Aditya the list of things I was going to bring for him on the first day of the meeting, and to date, I remember. But destiny has its play, every time I tried to arrange a meeting I was summed up with a list of other work to do. Not being aware of the importance of time play, I always used to delay it or sometimes the meeting got postponed because of his busy schedule. In the end, I decided to approach him directly for data collection as my submission dates were not so far. I being a little depressed girl who lacks emotional intelligence find Dora as wellness care for myself. One day I got to, I learned about Dora’s birthday, which was on the 18th of May. I immediately decided to gift her glamorous sunglasses or an art piece made by me. Engaged with all these wonderful thoughts of meeting Aditya and Dora – the two loved ones together was just a daydream.

Every story has somehow happy and sad parts in it. I was blessed with the trail of happy love and care part. In this happiness, I left it unnoticed that Aditya is not messaging frequently. If Aditya used to talk to me for 2 minutes a day then the whole day was positively managed by me. After some days I realized that I am being ignored by him. I started to find a reason for it, but was clueless. I kept messaging Aditya for some reason, but I was no more part of his life. A day with bliss that used to start with the little heart emoji suddenly disappeared. The days started feeling up with sadness, lack of energy, and no more tinkling, no more fun. I was again on the merry-go-round of finding my peace back. The most important was my Dora, whom I had never met personally. The desire for her is still in my heart, asking more of Dora and finding peace in Aditya.