My heart knew I shouldn’t carry on
but my words didn’t stop
A long time it had been
and I had to share a lot!

I kept going and I kept crying
it felt nice in that very moment.
I don’t know if I said too much
wasn’t judging myself and I do not repent!

Though, what I had forgotten was that
I was showing them my weaknesses
and that’s all it was to them, my weaknesses!

To them it wasn’t my story
cause it wasn’t proceeded by any moments of glory.
I wonder why even my mind couldn’t nudge me
that to them it was merely a chance to judge me.
I was giving them the power to control me in the end
And that’s what hurt me the most in the end
And that’s how I realized there is no such thing as a friend!

If you’re broken you would care but they won’t
you might try your best, what if they don’t?
In the end it’s just you all alone.
You would wanna open up and get closer to them
But one day soon enough you’ll be sitting alone again.
Then you’ll ponder where you went wrong
If you’ve been through something like that, you buddy are really strong!

And I’m not saying that as a friend of yours
There is no such thing as a friend of course.
I’m saying that cause I’ve done that, I’ve been there
but grilling yourself because of them is so not fair!

If you’re the only one putting in too much, then just stop!
You might drift apart and all, so what?
You deserve so much better, let me tell you
Oh I wish I had known that too!

Cause I wasted my tears for them,
every second of every minute I spend
And that’s how I realized there’s no such thing as a friend
And that’s how I realized there is no such thing as a friend!

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