Sitting on the bathroom floor
holding my heart tight 
while the tears burst out 
from my black pupil eyes,
I have turned myself 
into a monster, I think 
I have thoughts in my mind 
maybe I can't let them sink 
I know am different 
I don't fit in 
but am trying so hard 
so let me in
Let me in this world 
as blood oozes from corners 
of my veins that I slit 
to grieve for myself.

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