Mumbling thoughts through the screen anticipated for you to feel the same,
maybe was elated to gaze at you through the same screen,
unaware of being devastated by your love,
felt real at the moment,
it surely did for I wondered
Oh, is this how’s it supposed to be or am I day-dreaming.
Starved for your affection, attention, respect and
All that you promised to spoil me with,
was gullible to be drowned in your pool of false promises,
trapped in the whirlpool of my own brain-draining thoughts,
let my opinions be suppressed, self-esteem at stake
just to sulk over all I loved was fake,
Created a void inside me
believing it was supposed to be this way-
breaks you, makes you question self-worth,
unravels your anxious self or even molds you into a different human
for you let a foreign wave of emotions affect your membranes,
Deserted on an island with abandoned self you feel-
As those waves become turbulent enough to flood you
With deprecation, held in the middle of floating and succumbing,
chose to be numb again.
Nothing has ever been so volatile yet sane to you
for this was what you always longed for,
dwindling in my dreams, felt like was collapsing,
buried under the soil for then
your words felt like coils,
hills of hopes, oceans of tears, forests of love-
all dissolved and burnt within a snap,
flashbacks treating me like hell
reminding me how hard I fell
losing all of me just to sedate a corner of your heart,
for once I told-
All of you are all of me,
certainly meant to leave me in wrecks,
same as you were hollowed,
devoting was a sin I stumbled upon
for having faith in you, as well
Oh-so-grieving-yet-eye-opening poems about love,
Only helped me to tarnish,
setting all my beliefs on fire,
yet there I stand to cherish it irrevocably,
praying to not succumb as the
one left alone, lost seafarer.

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